This Christmas

What do I want? Despite the fact that santa is only another fairy tale but deep within me there is one real santa standing with me

A Dinner With Purpose

Tonight dinner is a dinner with a purpose. It is an occasion where I do not know how to react. And because of that occasion, we know that we will have a long long way to go and more tha1 year to plan. I know that we will have to walk through many path together.

1. Desinging our new home
2. Planning would never be "me" anymore but "us"

Oh

I have placed one foot onto bidding goodbye to sweet single

In the End

My wish was not granted. My wishlist was not fulfilled but I received something that was never in the wishlist. Something I never thought would come to place. But I am very glad that it happened. And because it happened I discover a different side of myself. Now that it had reached my hands, I should treasure it well and am learning to appreciate.

It is November now and the end of 2010 is coming. It was a great year I had to admit. I am so close and I am not greedy. Just that it was all planned and I know that it would take a year or so for it to come true. But only god knows how eager I am at this moment.

This year convocation reminisces me of the things that I have gone through 2 years back. Despite now that I have graduated and I am still keeping my fingers crossed wishing for it to come true.

Options

Many times when you thought of the future, you may get confused and sometimes you find yourself lost
When you thought that you have found the right path
When you thought that you have found the road to your dream
You look at yourself into the mirror and ask

Is that really what you wish for?

I am Really Hoping

And praying so hard
I wish I could have it
I just wish I could
Though there is nothing that I could control
But I wish I could be given an opportunity
Sometimes I realized I am not getting any closer
Because I tried too hard?

I Overheard

I overheard her screaming at her sister
Calling her bitch
Calling her dirty and not knowing her future
Saying that she should not have dirty herself and wasting her future

I may had it all wrong. Maybe things were not what I am thinking but no doubt I am surprised.

Sorry I did not meant to eavesdrop but you were just too loud and the walls were so thin

I Think I am Regretting

But well it is too late...

Therefore, let's fix it than regretting or worrying about it...

When you Need Your Own Space

You need your own space and time to do your personal things or just to have your personal silence time. It is true that life is not only about yourself but life is also not only about others.

You would want everyone in the world to be happy. But what if one day you realized that you are no longer the old you. You realized that you are braver compared to the old you. You voice out your minds and you act on the things you do.

Some are not happy but if things were pretty much better compare to previously then the change is very much worth it. Why stay in old school if the new one is better. After all technology means progressing and process is suppose to make things better.

The Job and the Future

Thinking where you would be in 5 years time.
Thinking of I want to do in 5 years time.
Where do I want to be in 5 years time.
My current role and where I want to be.

The above could be read as a statement

but most importantly I am asking myself

What do I want to do now?

The Price of a Vacation

You brought me to have to snack sushi in Penang where chao keow teow would be a better option
But strangely the feeling was different
I ate laksa and ice kacang under a tremendously hot weather at a stall
Where I normally does in an air-conditioned shopping mall
Bathing in sweat must have caused the feeling the different

We watched drama for hours at home
We talked about our new home
We talked about our future plans
You brought me to taste and feel the local food and culture
I started to realized what made the similar and different activities so different

I slept till the sun rise up high
I never enjoyed doing that but I thought it was really great to have done that once in a while
We talked about the future and the constraints

When we were enjoying the wind on the ferry
I noticed now I could not remember what I was thinking for the moment
When I walked up to the pagoda and had myself staring at the religious symbols
I asked myself what is my direction

Perhaps for many years or even years ago I already have a direction but was afraid to pursue
Cause when I asked myself again, I realized it was something that I have once boldly fought for

Rediscovering Myself

I will be away for fresh air this Friday onwards.

When I Know That Convocation is in October

The feeling was overwhelmed. 2 years back when I graduated with the first degree, I have doubts in continuing as a post-graduate. Simple because I am financially not ready and I am a lost soul not being able to decide what I wanted in life. I was so afraid of making mistakes.

But little did I realized that mistakes is part of the growing life where we learn from mistakes and one day we will know what is the right thing to do. Even if we are not able to decide what is the best but at least we are able to decide something better.

Today I am not afraid of mistakes but it is something that I would face.

Why MBA

I have to admit that I am a person that values and respect various cultures. Graduating in the technology background for the first degree has brought in many fascinations on how technology can bring comfort to the society. But the ability to view the fascinations and obsessions of mankind is the one that brought in the more advancement.

Nobody says that MBA will bring or make one has the ability to view in different manners but MBA syllabus does mark a change in how the person look at things. It made you wonder and question your own thoughts.

The syllabus has changed my way of thoughts. But maybe it was also the time and experience that have contributed to the changes. OK. To be fair, MBA did contribute to the changes. Previously I thought I was right for certain things but today I have to admit that I was wrong.

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I changed my mind on 7th September 2010. Taking MBA as an alternative chance for me in other areas.

Myself

Sometimes writing about own self may just be another way of discovery. It simply does not imply the person being selfish or self boosting. There is a possibility but if you look from other angles it could just be a new discovery or another set of self fascination.

I am now at a different stage of life where I found myself at crossroads. The journey may not walk me to Disneyland but it is surely exciting and I often find myself doing things I have never imagine of.

Many people see me as lucky but sometimes what you see may be just deceiving in front of your eyes. I may not have the best but being satisfied is part of the interesting puzzle to be solved in life.